I have had some phenomenal weeks this summer.
My first involved the week where I lost seven pounds. I still have no clue how the hell I did that. The doctor looked at my food intake and said, THAT'S WHY!
It doesn't hurt that I have had to eliminate most things free my diet. That includes wheat, gluten, flour, sugar... pretty much anything with high carbs, lol. Apparently Atkins on Steriods is a great diet!
Then came the need to buy new pants. THAT was awesome. In fact, if you sneak up on me while I am wearing shorts, it only takes a quick tug for me to be pantless. :-p
My first week going back to school. The one week a year where we have hour long lunches and get to leave the campus like a grown up and have lunches with our coworkers at restaurants. Knowing how I have no willpower, I chose not to go. No temptation is the best way for me to stay focused!
Then there was my last appointment.
Still on my high, I figured I must have lost at least another seven pounds!! Maybe more!!
Measly two pounds.
Now this is with a diet where I do not go over 1000 calories. I rarely go over 800 calories, actually. The high protein intake makes me not hungry. Before everyone jumps on saying that is too few calories, please remember that I am working with a doctor. I am taking many vitamin supplement and other medications.
So when I am almost perfect, it drives me insane to see so low of an impact. It makes me focus on the two small cheats I had. Could a freaking tootsie roll stop success? Did the cookie I grab cause me to gain weight back that I might have lost?
It drives me crazy.
I have stopped weighing myself weekly because I found myself obsessing with the scale. Sometimes I still can't help myself. However, it doesn't count until I get to the doctor's office.
That is what I try to focus on.
Since June 27, 2013 I have lost a total of 16 pounds. It has been slow with sudden drops to back to slow. I have never been as aware of what I put in my mouth as I am now. Do I occasionally break and have a small cheat? Of course. I'm human. I wouldn't lose anything if I could never give myself a break!
I know it is working, but I prefer instant gratification. If I am sticking to the strictness of my diet, I want every week to be a big weight loss week. Not 2 pounds in three weeks!
A drop is a drop. At least I am still losing weight.
I just want the award to be worth the deprivation.